2010 was such a good year for us that I almost hate to see it go. Caroline did not have to be hopitalized even once during 2010!! We are so blessed. 2011 will be much different for us because we will have the reminder of what it's like to live at the Ronald McDonald House and hospital during Caroline's surgery :( . It really all scares the crud out of me but to be honest I try and keep it as far from my mind as possible. We put on our strong faces and act like we know how to do this but on the inside things are different. Please keep all of our family in your thoughts and prayers in the coming months as we prepare ourselves for what's to come. I know God will protect Caroline and that she is so tough but I am worried about how tough I am. I think one of the things that scares me the most is that I am afraid Caroline will lose a part of herself. If you know Caroline, then you know that she is the happiest most care free child and has the best sense of humor. After the last surgery it took a while before she smiled again and I feel that after this one it will be even longer. I fear that she will be mad at us for letting them "hurt" her. I know this is just my mommy brain working overtime and that this will pass and one day just be another chapter in our lives but these are the thoughts that flood my brain when I think of what is to come.
On another note, You guys rock my socks!!! So far we have sold 250 t-shirts and are still adding to the list every few hours it seems like. For those of you who haven't seen the information on the tshirts I will copy and paste my last blog post into this one for you to read. In addition to the last blog post we have the ability to get toddler shirt sizes 2T and 4T and the YXS is a size 4/5 and the largest size we have is an Adult 5X. Thank you all so much who have ordered. Caroline is the light of our lives and she keeps us going on most days! You will never know how much we appreciate everyones help and support. I am at times overwhelmed with the willingness of people who don’t even know us to help! We are truly so very blessed!
t-shirt post from a few weeks ago:
Many of you know Caroline's story and have been praying for her throughout her life. For those of you that do not know I am going to copy and paste my original blog post at the bottom of this so that you can all read about my precious angel. Caroline has had two open heart surgeries in her short time here (2 1/2 years) and has one to go. We are planning to be traveling to Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at the end of February or first part of March for Caroline's surgery. During this time Adam and I both will be out of work. We are selling t-shirts in order to raise money to help us during this time to pay our bills back home and also eat and pay for our stay at the Ronald McDonald House. The t-shirts are $15 and as of now we have adult and youth sizes. I am checking into getting toddler shirts done and hopefully I will have this information soon! The design of the tshirt makes me smile and really screams "Caroline" to me. She is our superhero. On the back of the tshirt it will say "Not all superheros fight their battles on the outside" under this it will have a little girl superhero with the outline of a broken heart on her chest. On the front left pocket area of the tshirt (these will NOT be pocketed shirts this time) it will say at the top "Half a heart.... twice the fight" and under that will have a broken heart. Underneath the heart it will say Caroline Puckett, HLHS. I told the lady who is making the design that I wanted them to be able to be worn by men and women so it should be done in colors that will be fine for both. I have been so overwhelmed with the outpouring of love and generosity we have received so far. You guys have been wonderful!! I posted tshirt sales on my Facebook page on Friday late afternoon and just since then have received 75 t-shirt orders! That is so awesome and I hope you all know how much you mean to me. Thank you so much for supporting us during this difficult time in our lives. Caroline is going to kick this surgeries butt and we will hopefully be back home in no time at all! I should have a picture of the shirt design on Tuesday or Wednesday and at that time I will post it here and on my facebook page. If you would like a tshirt you can comment here, you can email me at email@example.com or you can find me on facebook (Katie Puckett). Probably facebook or email will be the easiest so that I can give you my address to mail a check to (I am unsure about posting my address on this site??). Again, thank you so much for your support!
AND this is Caroline's Story....
Emily Caroline Puckett was born on Thursday, July 10, 2008. She was born with a serious heart defect called Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS). This basically means that the left side of her heart is severely underdeveloped or nonexistent. To correct this, she must undergo a 3-stage surgical process. She had her first surgery (Norwood) on July 15, 2008, at Children's Hospital of Philadelphia (CHOP). After being in Philadelphia for a month, they let us come home. Caroline had many obstacles in those few months at home. After Caroline’s first round of immunizations she had seizures and had to be hospitalized at Blair E. Batson Children’s Hospital in Jackson for one week. In October 2008, Caroline went for a routine cardiology appointment and her oxygen readings were very low. Her cardiologist, Dr. Jennifer Shores, decided to keep Caroline overnight and schedule a heart catherization for the next day. The next morning, Caroline went in for a heart cath and they found that the shunt in her heart was clotted almost completely. The Dr. did not feel comfortable fixing the problem here, and therefore wanted us to go back to CHOP for the procedure.
When Caroline came back from her heart cath they brought her to me and put her in my arms while telling me that we were going to have to go immediately back to CHOP to have this fixed. Everything after that moment was a blur for me, I vaguely remember the nurses came in and took her from me to put her in the ICU setting to keep a better watch on her while we were going home and gathering our things. Within minutes of them taking Caroline from my arms she crashed and they told me to kiss her and tell her I loved her and walk away so that they could do all they could to help my baby. I can’t begin to tell you what that felt like. I was so powerless and my baby was slipping away from me as I watched. Caroline was emergently intubated and kept comfortable until they could arrange for an air jet to come pick us up. We arrived in Philadelphia in the middle of the night and they worked on her for hours to stabilize her for another cath the next morning. She was able to have the catherization and her shunt was stinted so that blood could move freely. The surgeon came to me that day and told me that 10% of these babies die suddenly at home between the first and second stage surgeries because of this very reason. If we had not had a doctors appointment and been in the hospital when this happened, we would not have our little girl today. Caroline’s vocal cords were damaged during the emergency intubation and because of this, we had to thicken her formula to a nectar consistency to prevent aspiration. Shortly after we returned home from Philadelphia Caroline stopped eating by mouth because of the strain it was putting on her heart. We spent another 10 days at Blair Batson trying to work out feeding issues and learning how to deal with an NG tube for feeding that ran up her nose and down her throat. Caroline’s 2nd stage surgery was scheduled for December 5, 2008 and she had a scheduled pre-surgery heart cath planned for December 1st. We were very fortunate to have Sanderson Farms provide us with a flight to PA for our 2nd surgery. They told us that they would arrange for us to be taken if we could leave Nov. 25th. We spent Thanksgiving holidays at the Ronald McDonald House in Philadelphia and took Caroline to the hospital that Friday to be weened off of blood thinners. The heart cath that Caroline had on Dec. 1st showed that her aorta had narrowed and needed to be ballooned and reopened for optimal blood flow. Because of the procedure done during the heart cath, Caroline’s surgery would have to be postponed at least 4 weeks. The doctors did not want us flying back and forth between Philadelphia and Mississippi and decided that it would be best to keep Caroline in the hospital until surgery. Caroline had her 2nd stage (Glenn) surgery on December 22, 2008. After surgery Caroline did really well and was extubated very quickly and taken off a lot of the post-surgery meds. On December 23rd, in the middle of the night, I received a phone call saying that she coded and had to be re-intubated. That day was a very hard day for us because they kept her almost in a paralytic state the entire day and night. Christmas eve was a much better day and she started to slowly come around. By Christmas morning, they extubated Caroline and she was awake and aware enough to “open” her presents that had been provided by the hospital and to take a picture with Santa Claus. The next 2 weeks were spent being taken off medicines and working with physical and occupational therapy to start getting geared towards going home. Caroline never picked back up eating and the doctors at CHOP thought that it would be in her best interest to have a surgical procedure to insert a G-tube into her stomach for feeding. Finally, on January 22, 2009 they let us go home. After spending Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years in Philadelphia, news of going home was music to our ears. Caroline has been doing very good since January and has been living a VERY happy life. She goes to the cardiologist , now, only once every 3 months. She had to have a heart cath in May to balloon her aorta again and everything went really well. Caroline has one planned surgery left to go, and will be traveling back to Philadelphia in the spring of 2011. The surgeries designed to fix the defect that Caroline has are only 20-25 years old. There are 20-25 year olds who are doing fine with only the 3 surgeries, who have had to have more corrective surgeries along the way and/or who have had to have heart transplants. Each case is very different and greatly depends on the individual patient. We hope that in another 20-25 years this won’t be something that we even have to worry about because of new technology. We could not have made it this far without the outpouring of love and support that we have received along the way. It has been a very long and hard journey that is not anywhere close to being over, but we are so very fortunate to have her. We hope to bring more awareness to the growing number of children born with congenital heart defects. Today, Caroline still does not eat by mouth and sees a speech therapist to work on feeding twice a week. Caroline also has some physical set backs and has not yet started walking. With all of the hospital stays and heart surgeries she has been behind at each physical stage but we know that in no time she will take off walking and all of that will be a thing of the past. She is a very "normal" little girl who does very "normal" little girl things. She is sassy and I am sure that some of our stories from here on out will make you laugh because she is definitely a princess and likes to be treated like one!